I haven’t written in a while. Not that I didn’t want to, or even that I didn’t have anything to write about, because if anything, I could never have enough topics to go on and on about. I guess it was because I felt awkward wondering if I should write in my actual journal or not—considering that I now have this blog as an outlet to express myself. And since not many people actually read my posts to begin with, I didn’t think it would be too much of a problem if I just wrote whatever the heck was on my mind. Regardless, I couldn’t bring myself to choose this cold and strange medium over my warm and familiar journal. I guess some things never change.
Today I wanted to write a little bit about idealism.
Sometimes I think I get caught up in the idea that my life is supposed to go a certain way. That A plus B plus C subtracted by D divided by E has to equal X. And if it doesn’t, the equation doesn’t balance. And God forbid the equation doesn’t balance, haha.
But what I’ve learnt is that no matter how I get there, Allah already has the answer for X. And InshaAllah, A, B, C, D and E will also eventually find their carefully constructed places amongst the equation. Some subtracted, some divided, some added and some multiplied—I just don’t know right now. In any case, developing strong mathematical skills (imaan) is the only way to build confidence in order to understand that the equation will balance and equal the amount it was destined for.